Something has to change

I've been sleeping longer in the morning, sleeping later in the evening, and sleeping more in the afternoon. I need to stop sleeping. I love the slumber, but the tendency is building up. I have to start waking up early in the morning. I feel old saying this, but I get it now. Longer mornings/days turn into more productive days. You can't always sleep late and wake up late every night, rather every week. Right? I've got to get going, running efficiently by 11 a.m., to be satisfied with myself at the end of the day. I need to start concentrating more of my time with Anna. She deserves it from me. She has done so much for me this past year. She has given me everything this past year. As I reflect over it all, I wouldn't be where I am today if it wasn't for her kindness, loving-heart, and compassion. I need to remember to be there for her first and foremost. I need to stop thinking about me as much. I need to include her more into my life. I need to prove to her that I am so deeply in love with her. Something has to change. It has to change to get better.

The snow has returned

Today was a great day to wake up really early, aspire to do productive things, but instead just go back to sleep due to the warmth of multiple blankets. Winter is officially among us with consistent cold weather and layering is in full effect. The strive for self-motivation is very important. Snow has made it's first appearance this late in the year. The sensation of being cold every time you walk outside has arrived for the remainder of the year. Michigan weathers really know how to catch you slipping. This also means the holiday season will be coming up soon. The bittersweet emotions of great pastime Christmas memories in contrast with being homesick and missing loved ones. Now, I have a feeling I will be spending my Christmas time with my newly found loved one, Anna Joyce Volante. Life right now includes her. My future includes her. Life is about to be us, and less about me. At first, I didn't know how to grasp that and I didn't know if I was completely ready for all of that selflessness. After long daydreams and consideration, I am at a better place with myself and that future. I have seen improvements in myself this past year. My drive, my hunger, my ambition has returned to it progressive incline. She isn't fully responsible for the return of my drive, but she does have somewhat of an impact. She is my strength, and I appreciate it everyday for that. Maybe I should show it to her more than I should.

Work harder

It's time to put your head down and work. Work like you've been doing this you're entire life. Work like it's human nature. Work like today was the last day for your deadline. Go out and focus on the main goal. Stray away from distractions and fatigue. Will yourself to become better every second. Do as if no one is looking, but everyone notices it. Be relentless, fearless, and with a purpose. Never strive for anything less than what you're capable of today. Remember today is your day if you want it.